Sunday, October 16, 2016

Coconut Peach

Hey KC,

I still remember how we met on Masjid Jamek that early morning when I was on my way to work,
I walked up to the platform and saw a guy looking at me, he smile at me, and I smiled back,
before I can turn away, he walked up to me, asking did I studied in UK before... and that's you...
that's how you engaged me... that's how we exchange our number.
I must say that's the best pick up I ever had...

Since then, we chatted day and night, sharing our stories, our thoughts, anything we could think about, we will talk bout it... It was kinda of sweet, and I actually thought you were the one that I've been looking for all my life...

but I was wrong....

Things were too good to be true, I've tried asking you out numerous time, but everytime I asked, you would gave different excuses, but then you told me you were hanging out here and there with your friends, your ex and etc, but never once you accept my invitation. I told you I would wait until you willing to see me, I also said that I have faith in that. But... I'm just too naive...

That's what people say, when patience were completely consumed, you started to consume the love... My love for you has been decreasing day by day until one day when I said I missed you, and all you ever replied was thank you. That's when I realise I'm so dumb that I've waited you for more than half a year just to see you once. I decided to stop texting you since then. I removed your contacts, our chat history, everything so that I would not have the slight chance to be stupid again to text you.

Three months passed, you text me... Trying to be good, I replied you,and that's how things started again. We start texting, but not the same like last time, I would not initiate conversations nor giving you long text. Then you told me you wanted to meet me up, of course I was very happy and looking forward for it, but deep down I know this is just another lie you trying to make... and I was right, there it was on the day where you were suppose to meet me, no text no calls, I know what's that mean, the game is on again... and yes, that's when all my love, my patience, my hope, my dream were all gone...

Today, you told me that you are going to "somewhere" and told me you were sick again recently, but you never did mention about why you didn't meet me or so... See, the same trick you did... This time, I just give "TC" and then immediately i deleted the chat... The "TC" is my last text to you, and I hope you don't text me again. Oh ya, i never saved your contact since the last time I removed you, and it turns out I was right, you doesn't deserve that...

Good bye...

Monday, October 3, 2016

What's my preferences?

I often get asked by friends that what's my ideal type of BF,
whenever they asked that, I would stun there and there's no answers in my mind...
Perhaps I should write it down, so that the next time the same question comes in, I know what to answer.

What would he be like?
Of course everyone will always hope for the perfect bf,
handsome, fit, rich, caring, friendly...
perfect in every way, but it's that possible?
and if he's so perfect,he wouldn't be interested me though...hahaha...

So let me think,
maybe my ideal bf would be like this,
he doesn't have to be as perfect as that,
short and smart hair,
eyes that fills with stories,
cool looking face, but when he smile, he would be so cute so adorable,
height really doesn't matter to me, as long as we're doesn't look a giant and dwarf,
body wise, doesn't have to be as perfect as a gym rat,
just average, not too skinny, not too fat, little muscle on the biceps would be fine.
he doesn't need to have a fancy job, as long as he's able to survive with his job that's more than enough.
What else?
oh ya... characteristic...
Caring! Being bf meaning we would care for each other, our lives, our health and of course our emotions.
Sporty too, maybe we can do some sports during our leisure time, morning jog, evening swim, or maybe hiking! hahaha...

Well, well, well... I guess I'm stuck again, let's update again when I think of something again!

Saturday, April 16, 2016



三年前的我,沉溺于那英国的爱情游戏,却没发现你的存在…
三年后,在命运的愚弄下,我…很幸运地遇见了你…
你诉说着三年前对我的感觉,但我很惭愧,因为我根本不记得三年前与你的一切…
你说三年前你没能成功,这次你想再试一次…
你让不太相信爱情的我再一次的沦陷于这情海中,
可你却总是告诉我说你忙不能见面,
被盲目爱情的我傻傻地说,我会等你的…
三个月过去了,我们始终没能见得到,你突然说我们不该继续这样下去了…
为了这三个月看似美好却不切实际美梦,我失落了三天…
我想你可我不再讯息你,
我想见你可我没再去约你,
慢慢地你的不存在又变成了理所当然,
就好象你未曾出现过…
你发的照片我依然收着,偶尔开起嘴角还是会微微的上扬,
或许现在的我还不够优秀所以你离开我,
或许这一切都只是你的报复,报复我三年前没把你放在心上,
或许你想我专注于我的生活,
或许有很多或许…
你依然在我心里,只要你愿意走进来,它的门就会打开…