Tuesday, January 7, 2014

英国那时的你

每当无所事事躺在床上的时候,
偶尔还是会想起在英国的那段日子,
而每次想起英国的时候总会想起你,
因为在英国求学的这段回忆里,
你已经占据了很大的位置。

你在我去英国之前的前几个星期出现,
然后在我从英国回来的时候消失了……
可笑的是,
我们连面都没见过就已经许下了一堆的承诺,
结果到最后都只是浮云,
一切随风而逝。

你的突然消失,
真的让我摸不清是怎么一回事,
我很错愕但却也不能怎样,
试着讯息你,可你已经没有回复了,
冲动之下我把关于你的一切都删除,
为的只是想尽快忘记你,
却没想到反而更加地想念你,
我多么希望时间能够停在英国的时候,
即使我们没有在一起,
但至少我是幸福的…

你知道吗?
因为你现在每当下午4点至6点,
我都会很自然的加上7个小时,
因为那时我们相差7个小时,
而4点至6点刚好是你放工了,
而我下课了的时候,
所以那是我们聊天的时候。
有时候我会特地很迟才睡,
为的只是和你说一句早安…

我记得我们最常说的一句话是,
Do you have something to tell me?
听起来好像在审讯,
其实是在关心对方,
想知道近况罢了。
彼此分享了好多的东西,
从学业,工作,心情到未来…
 现在想起,
心里还是甜甜的…

虽然我不知道你为何突然消失掉,
但我至少我曾经幸福过,
这段回忆不管怎么说还是甜的。

虽然知道我们能见面的机会几乎0.0000000000123%
但每次我在KLIA转机,
或等待航班的时候,
都会期待你会从某个方向走出来,
然后我会上前去跟你打招呼,
你或许已经忘了我是谁,
但没关系,
只要让你知道有一个人傻傻的记住你就好了…
或许有一天我会在飞行的途中,
驾驶舱里的机长是你…
哈哈…


P/s:因为你,我现在不敢从看冲上云霄,因为我肯定会想起你,然后伤心…
       我爱你……M
       =) 这个表情符号也是受你影响,现在都会用它

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

Home

I know I suppose to post something happy and joyful today,
but I really had enough,
woke up in the morning and keep listen to some nags.

So everything is my fault then?
Now you are complaining to mom about me,
like I'm the worst person in the world,
you say wanna live like a family but you're not treating me like how eldest sis did,
you are treating me like a burden, and how you want me to feel like a family?
You say I never call you, but did you ever asked why your son never call me?
and how your son treat me? I always keep in my heart, cause I don't wanna cause any problems.
You asked me to take out all my things and put them in the wardrobe and cupboard,
I refused and you complain to mom that I'm like a tramp,
but did you know that you told me that is your son's room,
then why should I take it as my own room?
I'm just staying at your place for temporarily,
and it is you who ask me to come and stay,
and then you treated me in that way and keep complaining.
I don't feel comfortable at all,
and how you want me to feel Home here?
I feel more home when I'm staying with my friends,
and even alone in penthouse,
I got my own room,
my own space,
and freedom,
but what I got here is just Trap,
I'm trapped!

If you want to invite people to stay at your place,
please welcome warmly,
not treated them like a burden,
they feel it but they just endure it,
because it's not their home afterall.

Everytime I back eldest sis house,
that's what called a home,
I know which room am I gonna stay,
where to put my things,
and treat each other like a family,
not a GUEST!