Saturday, November 30, 2013

Dream

After graduated for sometimes,
and being jobless and nothing to do,
this question suddenly came to my mind in the middle of the night.

What is my dream?

I questioned myself for several times,
and I started to get scared,
I'm frightening,
I'm miserable,
I'm just don't know what to do.

What if I don't know what my dream is?
What if I too afraid to dream?
What if I don't know what I want for?
What if...

I feel like all I'm doing is dying,
I'm living inside other plans,
born - study - get a job - get a family - dead
So this is life huh?
So what is it I really want to do?
What is my dream?

Like everyone said,
I want to be rich...!
but... there's always a but,
how to be rich?
Get a job work like everyone else?
How many years will it take to be rich?
and this is not going to make me a millionaire...
Make my own business?
How do I get start?
How much money do I need to start a business?
Where this money come from?
There's just too many questions for each road I choose,
and all lead me to different end,
so which route should I choose?

Well, I guess after all
I think I should just start working.
At least that's how I stay alive,
isn't it?
Well, I just hope I can get a job soon,
at least I don't have to stay idle and think too much.

When I'm just about finish writing this blog,
I have a feeling that I know what my dream is,
that's strange but it feels good... =)

**I was listening to Yiruma's playlist in youtube,
and when I peeped to the title of the music I'm listening,
it called "Dream"... How ironic is that?