Friday, August 31, 2012

好乱

是暗恋吗?
我只觉得是38罢了,
朋友说我是暗恋,
可是我不信……
哈哈哈~
只觉得不可能,
可是又好像有可能,
惨了,
到底怎么啦?
朋友啊……
告诉我,
我是不是发疯了?

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

想家却不能回家

唉……
突然有种恐惧找上门,
本以为是因为寂寞了,
结果不是,
是因为想家了。

现在是Semester Break,
以往的这个时间,
我应该在家里翘着二郎腿看着Astro,
可是……
因为FYP的关系,
必须留下来赶工。
赶工已经很烦了,
然后看着同学一个接着一个的回去家乡,
然后自己一个人留在这里。
真的很讨厌,
这种早餐,午餐,晚餐一个人吃的感觉,
那种孤独,
那种无奈,
没有人能了解……

此刻的我,
真的好想大哭。
T.T

Sunday, August 26, 2012

不烦了

Final Year Project虽然说真的很麻烦,
可是真的让学到一些东西,
一些跟知识无关的东西。

这次我想说,
如果你做一件没有把握或者没信心完成的事情,
不要担心那么多,
与其费心去担心,
倒不如慢慢的去解决一个一个问题,
先不要想结果,
先设一个最低最低的目标。
达到目标后,
再来慢慢的改进,
改到跟原先的目标差不多。
因为如果你一开始就想怎么做到跟预期的一样,
那么你只能“想”……

另外,
不要想太远,
考虑的太多反而是阻止我们前行的绊脚石,
我已经打算见步走步,
一步一步的走,
或许有点慢,
但至少我在行动中。
别看我每天吊儿郎当,
我心里有数,
也有计划,
即使有误,
我也会有Plan B……

我真的不想再为FYP这个东西烦,
反正烦与不烦我还得做。
既然我做了这个选择,
就没得后悔,
在这选择里,
我们只能快乐,
因为不快乐,
也换不回任何东西。

P/s: 我可以的,加油~!

又来了

又再一次因为不抵Project的压力,
我又发疯了,
为了不伤害大家的眼睛,
我决定不Po在脸书。
在自己的Blog发疯就好……
哈哈哈^。^

Friday, August 24, 2012

Recent me

Is almost 5am in the morning,
I've finish my revision for the last paper in this tough semester,
while waiting for the exam in 9am later,
I decided to write something...

Final exam will be ended in few more hours,
but I'm not happy at all,
because I'll have to deal with my Final Year Project after that,
why am I not happy?
It's not that I do not have my passion in doing the project,
is just that I lack of confidence,
the reason is simple,
I have insufficient knowledge to complete the project,
and hence, I am afraid of doing it.
I didn't aim for high grade,
I just wish I can complete the project with my groupmate.

Sorry mate,
it was my idea for this project,
now you have to bear this consequences with me...
Just hope that we can pass through this.

Let's put the FYP aside,
would like to talk about my life recently,
I'm still the same old me,
the emo, mood changeable, and the crazy me.

I would like to say that in this transition year,
from a "naive and playful kid" into an "still-not-known adult" year,
life do change alot,
everything just happen suddenly,
all the things I used to do,
I told my best mate what I want to be in the future for the past few years in college,
but now...
I've changed,
I don't want to hide myself,
I start to accept who am I,
slowly and slowly,
I will let my family know who I am actually, (it's not the time yet)
of course,
I hope they will accept the truth.
However, everyone of us do know that it's hard to accept something that is unexpected in sudden,
I will not surprise for their reactions,
I don't want them to find out the truth through others,
I will be the one to tell them.
This is me,
what I born to be,
I have choose to accept myself,
if my family will not accept the truth,
I will still love them.

Hey Best Mate,
this is for you,
don't be shock when you see this post,
I'm not going to suicide or what,
just you know that,
when feeling comes,
I got to write it out.
I do wanna say a big thank you to you,
you are the most valuable person in my life until I find my partner.
Haha...
Thanks for everything you done,
the way you inspire me,
cheering me up,
pull me out of confusion,
ask me to be who I suppose to be and not what others want me to be.
I know my life ain't easy to live up,
but with you,
is much relieve...
Thanks for being there when I need to vent out some emotions.
What else can I say to you beside thanks?
Don't expect me to buy you something,
I won't~!!! XD

Well...
It seems like I've just voice out alot of things...
Ha!
To my lovely classmates & coursemates,
you all still be with me despite the I treat you all,
do love all of you,
thanks for accompanying me for these few years of college life.
My college life is great with all of you,
I will treasure all these things in my heart.

I think there's nothing much to say now,
hmmm...
Good luck for my final paper later,
and also for my Final Year Project.


P/s: This was what I saw in the past few days, my blog view has gone to 8888,
        the number is so nice until I printscreen it. :)



Tuesday, August 21, 2012

再见

书……读着读着,
读不进脑,
原因很简单,
完全在想其他事情。

真的对你越来越失望了,
算了吧,
你要怎样就怎样,
从今天起,
我不想再理你,
妄费我期待你会来,
你却说了那么的一段话。
算了,
真的算了,
你要这样那样,
你的事,
我管不着也管不了。
保重……

Monday, August 20, 2012

Noooo

不要害我Please……
我不要当小三……
你还是专一一点吧~

Sunday, August 19, 2012

突然想哭

大半夜一个人在家看“桃姐”,
看着看着就Emo了,
莫名其妙的想很多,
心情变得很低落,
好想哭……

想哭不是因为桃姐,
而是因为,
就不懂啦,
形容不出来~ 囧

就像痛痛快快的哭一场,
好寂寞啊……
T_T

Saturday, August 18, 2012

疑问

两个人在一起,
真的是两个人在一起吗?
不确定……

为什么?
有些人可以有了伴侣,
却同一时间又在猎色,
这些人的心态到底是怎么样?
难道就只为了性?
不明白……

如果已经厌倦伴侣,
为何还要勉强在一起呢?
不了解……


Thursday, August 16, 2012

_ 乱

原来……
电视剧里那样的世界,
是真实的,
我一直以为不是那样,
可是深陷其中,
才发现,
跟电视剧没分别,
差就差在我涉世未深。

只能用两个字形容我现在的世界,
你们自己去猜是什么字吧……

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

神经

最近发神经,
很爱唱歌,
所以很38的录了几首歌,
然后Upload上去,
本来想说低调的,
可是当歌曲Upload了没人听,
是一件很白痴的事情……

事先声明,
我唱的真的真的不好听,
小心你们的耳朵~

想听的话可以去我脸书Profile,
找Soundcloud这个东西……

P/s:唱的真的不好,有什么建议尽管说:)

Saturday, August 11, 2012

照骗

今天跟朋友38的去看人家Profile,
结果……
我们都很想打人,
拍照的角度真的可以让一个,
长得明明样衰的人变得那么好看,
如果单单看Profile Picture,
真的会被这帮人骗掉。

最可恶的是有一个,
ProfilePicture拍有够瘦的,
可是CoverPhoto明明就是肉肉的。
天啊~!
这些人怎么这么厉害啊?


朋友叫我跟他们学习,
我说才不要,
我喜欢让人家看到我真实的一面,
不需要去伪装,
我就是我,
再使什么障眼法,
我还是长那样子……

Thursday, August 9, 2012

发疯

如朋友所说的,
我们俩最近真的很缺爱,
每天都吵着说要拍拖,
可是缘分,
哪有那么容易降临啊?
值得庆幸的是还有一个人 跟我一样缺爱……

啊啊啊啊啊啊啊~~~
看到人家一个两个手牵手,
卿卿我我,
搞得我也要发疯了,
我要谈恋爱~!!!

可是朋友骂我说,
拍拖的时候闹分手,
单身的时候要拍拖。
真的,
我真的很犯贱,
可是如果在多一次,
我死都不要放手。
哈哈哈哈哈~!

恋爱之神,
快点将你手上的那支爱神之箭射出来吧……

Mood swing at wrong timing

This shouldn't be happen tonight,
I'm super emo now,
this is bad,
I'm having 1st paper of my final exam tomorrow,
should have studying hard right now,
but my mood now make me can't concentrate on the notes.
I just wish to sleep,
to avoid all the bad thinking but I can't,
I have to force myself to study,
to practice,
to master the working steps.
Please...
Moody please leave me alone,
I'll find you after my exam tomorrow ok?

Wednesday, August 8, 2012

一次两次,
每一次都是这样,
好好聊天会死啊?
为什每次都要把我弄生气才甘愿啊?
每次都要吵架,
同样的东西一直搬出来讲,
不闲的咩?
每次我都想要好好跟你聊,
可是你每次都要弄到我这样,
Ish……
不想再理你了,
你想怎样就怎样啦~

Monday, August 6, 2012

温习加油

不停的浪费时间,
真的是糟糕了,
只好使出狠招,
把电脑关掉,
开旧的电脑(旧电脑不可以上网),
利用旧电脑边听音乐边温习.


加油啊,何建桦~!!!
你是最棒的~!

装熟

其实有一件事我真的很在意,
每次我去莫一档打包的时候,
那一档的小贩总是很爱装熟,
我真的很讨厌,
而且他们讲的话都好像没进过大脑似的。
你问我说是那一档?
就那一档一家人的咯,
除了妈妈是正常的,
姐姐跟弟弟都是这样。
所以每次我去那边打包,
我都会Order了然后走去旁边的杂货店逛逛,
不想在那里等,
因为真的会很烦。
有时候他会没经过你的同意,
就直接打开你刚买的东西,
我真的很想说,
你可以不要这样没礼貌吗?
可是算了,
人家的孩子我管不着。
只能说,
下次打包的时候我会逛久一点……

P/s: 我真的很讨厌人家跟我装熟!

Saturday, August 4, 2012

云顶之休息之旅

为什么每次都会这样?
只有我一个人是这样吗?
每次从Trip回来,
心情都会大跌,
会突然觉得很寂寞。
啊……
我看我是疯了~

话说我刚刚跟朋友上云顶回来,
此行的目的是为了在考试前轻松一下,
当然还有进赌场(结果我输钱T.T)。

这次Trip最开心的事情莫过于,
在房间跟朋友们一起看奥运羽球半决赛,(李忠伟Vs陈龙)
比赛看得最刺激就是这一次了,
也很好玩……

还有还有,
当然少不了在花园拍照的时刻,
那时也玩的蛮颠一下,
拍了蛮多照片的~

回来了,
惨了,
要面对学业了,
唉……


P/s: 一个人的气质,怎样都掩盖不了的…… ^.^